Hello guys! I have achieved a new milestone—not in days yet, but in mindset. After my relapse mid-summer, I’m back. And honestly? I'm feeling very good now. Almost unstoppable.
But only almost. And that distinction matters.
The Reality Check
Of course, I'm not superhuman. I still have lags in performance. I recently damaged my shoulder in the gym, which was a huge physical setback. I sometimes feel lost and lonely, dealing with the emotional waves that come with early recovery.
And it's not just the internal stuff. I've suffered from a financial point of view, earning less money right now than I used to. Life hasn't magically become perfect just because I put down the bottle.
The Shift in Attitude
BUT.
And this is a big "but." The amount of positive attitude I have to change my life into what I want it to be is enormous. It feels different this time.
I don't feel like a loser anymore. That shame spiral that usually follows a relapse? It's gone. I'm in much more control and walking with more confidence right now.
Beating the Best Effort
My previous best effort was 159 days. That number used to haunt me a bit—the "what if" and "if only." But now, it’s just a target. A number on a scoreboard that I am absolutely going to beat.
I feel like I will beat my previous BEST EFFORT of 159 days not because it's easy, but because I'm ready.
For anyone else out there restarting or pushing for a new record: Good luck. This thing is worth it!
