3 Months Of Sobriety From Alcohol!
So, it's officially 3 months of complete sobriety! What can I say? I feel great.
The Sleep Revolution
My sleep has easily improved twofold — I wake up way more rested and fall asleep with no problem at all. I've struggled with sleep my whole life, so for me, this is a huge win.
I've basically built my current life around good sleep — and maybe I'll just keep living that way.
It's a bit boring sometimes, and yeah, now and then the soul craves a "celebration," but every morning, when I wake up fully rested, I'm like: damn, this is it, this is the celebration.
Context Matters
For context, I used to drink a lot, so the changes are pretty significant. If you're someone who drinks occasionally, you probably won't see any crazy miracles — but according to all the legit research, it still won't hurt to cut it out.
The Upsides of Sobriety
The upsides of sobriety? So many. Here's just a few:
1. The Sleep Upgrade
The infamous sleep upgrade. Sleep is half the battle, always. I've become super protective of it. Sometimes I mess up and stay up late gaming with friends — but overall, we're golden.
2. Authentic Self-Connection
Way closer connection to myself. You start realizing, like — wait, I don't even want to do this thing. I just used to tolerate it with a beer.
Same with some social interactions — I notice I'm anxious about something, and instead of numbing it, I go: okay, how do I fix this? And I actually fix it. Wild.
3. Routine Mastery
It's so much easier to stick to routines. I know how I'll feel in the morning — productive, energized, ready to hit the gym.
Life feels more disciplined, and that's critical when you're chasing long-term goals instead of just bouncing around. I now have a pretty clear idea of the life I want — that's important.
4. Mental Stability
Mental stability and more optimism. Those sudden "everything sucks" crashes? Gone. There's just this consistent low-key positivity about life and myself.
Even if life isn't actually going well — thinking like it is helps. But honestly, I believe things will go as I imagine. I'm really looking forward to my winter escape, and I already have goals set for it.
5. Physical Health
Gut health. Pretty obvious, right? My diet's healthier, and alcohol is pure trash for your digestive system. Like, it wrecks every part of it.
The Productivity Explosion
I've built four mobile apps, started a YouTube channel, and I regularly post about my indie dev journey. There's actual growth happening — in metrics, and in new (online) connections.
Sure, I'm starting to feel like I veered too far into "productive apps" again — but hey, life's a path. It'll sort itself out.
Still, it's been a super productive phase. And I'm genuinely proud of Sober Tracker — even if it's the simplest thing I've made, people actually use it and share their progress with me. That's amazing.
Any Downsides?
Any downsides? Not really. But there are some ongoing transformations:
1. The "Boring" Factor
Sometimes I feel more boring. I don't feel like going out partying or staying up all night. But I do have my own "parties" now — they just happen at 6:30 AM.
They've changed. That's okay. Since I've got a body transformation goal going on, it makes sense. Maybe I'll get back into party mode someday. Or maybe it's just "namaste-run-yoga" now. Ideally, I'll find a balance — because parties are fun.
2. The Sharpness Factor
I sometimes feel more… blunt? Sharper? Alcohol used to soften my edges, made it easier to go with the flow in conversations. Now I'm more like, "nah, this is bullshit, I don't agree."
I've got more energy to challenge stuff. Still, I'm definitely behaving more reasonably overall, more like a kind human being. It's just that now I draw clearer lines.
3. The "What Now?" Phase
This one's kinda dumb, but: What the hell do you do with life? Especially in the beginning, I was like — how do I relax now? How do I cope with stress? What do I even want to do?
I felt lost and more stressed than before. Alcohol had numbed all that. You'd just be like "eh, it's fine" while sipping something. Without it, you're like "this sucks, and I have no idea what to do." But if you reflect on it, that does pass.
4. Social Awkwardness
Social awkwardness. I don't really fit the "normal" mold (not a total freak though, don't worry), so sometimes I feel out of place socially.
Alcohol used to act as a social glue — it helped me accept myself and others more easily. But now the goal is to feel fine without it. That's the work.
5. Bar Culture
Bar culture. Let's be honest — bars, bar aesthetics, bar-based social circles — it's all cool. The trick is learning to enjoy those places sober.
That's not some kind of magical skill. I just haven't had the time or energy yet — got other goals to focus on.
The Bottom Line
So yeah — I'm totally happy being alcohol-free. I don't miss the alcoholic version of myself at all.
Sure, my brain sometimes tries to beg for a beer, but that's easily fixed with a walk, gaming, a chat, or some dumb hobby.
And I'm sure it'll keep trying — because for the brain, booze is cheap dopamine for pennies.
But hey — you work for me, brain, not the other way around. And so far, so good.
You work for me, brain, not the other way around. And so far, so good.
Three months of sobriety complete! The transformation has been incredible - from sleep struggles to sleep mastery, from emotional instability to consistent optimism, from tolerating life to actively building the life I want. The journey continues, and I'm excited to see what comes next.
